Finally daddy agreed that I take up the PTPTN loan for my degree. I've been persuading him for the past few weeks and finally he said yes! Of course with mummy's help. Mom was on my side and also think that I should take up the loan to lessen daddy's financial burden and to learn to be a little bit responsible of my own education. Daddy's old and he 5 years past retirement age. Though he's still working, but he salary not as much as before and anytime he can be called to "rest". Hopefully my application will be aprroved.

The day had finally arrived... We practised hard, we sweat ourselves and smells during prac and finally everything is over. Yeah, we performed the dance today in chruch. I don't how we actually did, but we did get good feedbacks. I'm not sure they complimented us for the sake of complimenting or it was really good. For me, I did a few mistakes, which I hope no one took noticed of it. However, my mom said the dance was ok except that our costume is a little bit off; especially the one my group wore. Anyhow, it's over and Praise God for everything...

After performing, I was very hungry and so is Mich, Don and Kyleen. Mich went to meru corner during altar call to get a 'pau' before her gastric attacks. After service, Mich, Sern Yi, Tien, Lih Woon and myself went to dnp for lunch. After lunch, I went to JJ with mom which I bought some stuff for myself and for a friend of mine, whose bday is around the corner. I had an hour of sleep before dinner and went for my fashion show practise right after dinner. Aunty Fee Lin and aunty Shona came for the prac as well. Oh boy, they can really walk and shake their arse, despite their age. hehehehe... We all had great fun... =)
I was told today that every model is required to attend the conference in which I'm still thinking whether to go or not. Like what Mich said, there will be lots of secondary school student then college and above. Because they focus a lot on sec sch. Then, we, the after form 5 ppl, will feel old and left out.
Yin Har pushed 10 fashion show tickets to me to sell. So, anyone, who is interested, pls pls pls buy from me... It's only RM10 and it's open to both boys and girls.
Oh yeah, I'll be going to 1-Utama this Thursday with aunty Amelia, Pamela Khoo, Seaw Chin and a few more girls for outfit trying. Can't remember the name of the shop... =)

My plans on this coming Friday night with my girls may have to be cancelled (or they go ahead without me... *sniff sniff*) cause... they want us to go to KEC and practise on the real stage and get use to it. *sigh** Well, I felt a bit weird today during prac. Walking with uncle Kelvin is fine but walking and clinging on him is weird... SO WEIRD MAN! eeeee.... By the way, uncle Kelvin is aunty Amelia's husband.

I'm tired now... gonna get some beauty sleep.

Today was extremely hot. Couldnt stand the heat.

We had dance practise for tmrw church's anniversary at 12-4.30pm. We went through several rounds and by the end of it, we were all so sweaty and hungry. So, inthe courtesy of saving money for next week, we went to 'under the tree' for lunch... The 'we' = myself, Mich, Kyleen & Don.

Came back, went online and chatted with eggtart for a while, who is doing her assignments in uni at 9pm, on a Saturday night! Can you believe it? *sigh** I can hardly sacrifise my Sat night for assignment, unless I've got no choice.

*sigh**

Tmrw is going to be a full day out for me. Have to wake up at the lastest 7.30am and be in church by 8am for our final practise. Then at night, fashion show - modelling practise at 7.30pm. This time we have to bring our high heels and catwalk with it. Oh gosh! Hopefully my heels won't break by the end of the day. Hahahahaha... I can predict that my foot is going to be in pain the next few days... =)

After 3months of waking-up-late-everyday, today was kinda torturous to wake up early in the morning for college. No, classes haven't started for me. Today is only for tutorial registration and classes will only resume next week, for me, Tuesday! I'm off on Mondays... =)

Though I was kinda looking forward to go back, as I mentioned in my previous post, however, there was a part of me feeling reluctant to go back. Why? Maybe because I'm friendless there? Only a handful of friends... Hmmm... Oh well, whether I like it or not, still have to go. 3 more semesters to go and I'm done with my degree. Can't wait! But that also means that I will have to worry about my working life. hehehe... leave that to worry next year.

Anyway, I'm back to college life, where I'll be busy with assignments, maybe once a while ponteng those boring lectures... and plan my transport everyday.

*life oh life...*

We had a girl's night out last night at TGIF, The Curve. It has been a long time since the 4 of us (Jas, Gean, Mei Siew and myself) go out for a nice dinner. We had great food and great drink and great fellowship as well. I ordered a 3-course meal and a glass of magarita. Oh darn that magarita... the after-effect >> terrible headache and a hungover this morning. Woke up looking like a zombie! Afterall, it was worth he fun we had.

Here, are some of the pictures taken...

Dazzling girls:- Jasmine, Sheila, Vivian, Mei Siew

Contented Vivian & Siew...

Jasmine & I

*natural blusher**

me & my delicious food

Mocha Mud Pie... speechlees...

*Magarita*

Starfish's dream wedding...

A wedding garden with a clean lake and with clean white swams in the lake. Clean white doves flying around... And a nice fountion behind the aisle. The team colour is white and peach. The garden must be filled with white lilies as well as pink and peach roses. I'll be dressed in my Vera Wang's white wedding dress, my maid of honour in very light pink dress and my 2 flower girls in their cute peach in colour dresses. Of course my husband-to-be will be dressed in a white tux and his bestman in his black tux and the ring bearer in his black suit. Give me forever (I do) by James Ingram & John Tesh will be played as I walk down the aisle...

No wedding dinner at the hotels or restaurants for cause that is so unromantic and noisy. Therefore, a reception (buffet style) will be just perfect with a band entertaining us with soft music and a dance floor. Daddy can have his open bar...
I love a small wedding, where only relatives and close friends are there to share the joy with me... In that way, I'll be able to fellowship with everyone there.

**Oh well, it's just a dream wedding... hahhaa =) If only there's such garden in Malaysia. Sarah said she wants to married my bestman, which I'll find someone obnoxious to be my bestman. Hehe... and she also want to dress in pink tux to be my driver. Yeah sarah??? hahahhaha!!!

Just came back from another practise... A fashion show prac for the Be That Girl conference. A number of girls was there and only 5 guys are involved. From GTA; myself, Shie Yee, Grace, Su Ann, Seaw Chin, Amy, Tzi Li, Melvin & Julian... There rest are from other various churches... Kinda of 1st time for me. However, we all had fun learning how to walk like a model. Aunty Amelia taught us how to walk with the right body posture. Fun and funny... all of us was like laughing at ourselves. We had the prac at a dancing studio, so there's a big mirror of us to see ourselves when we walk... =) Clothes that will be worn on that night will be sponsored by a few company (or wateva u call it...), with the condition that we help to promote their brand. Hair and makeup will be done by Kai Image... Cool uh? Kinda excited and at the same time... nervous! =)

Today was a very tiring day...

Slept at 4.30am yesterday and I had to wake up at 9am for De Connection meeting at 10am. The meeting was alright except that I felt a bit awkwark and left out as I was the oldest there and being stuck with so many younger ones really makes me feel O-L-D. *sigh** We discussed a lot of issues and came up with some new plans which I hope it's efficient enough to make this department more successful. The meeting ended later than planned. I went home before it ended as my dad needs to use the car.

Rested for about an hour before I went to church again for dance prac. Today we managed to cover everything and we actually went throught the whole thing for about 2-3 times. I guess that's a good improvement. But somehow, some of us still get a little bit confused here and there and we really need to brushed up as the real thing is next sunday. And that means, it left us with only one more prac. before performing... Very tiring! I danced bear footed and now I got a blister on each foot and that makes 2 blisters... OUCH!!!

After dance prac. some of us like myself, Kyleen, Grace and Donna rushed to college cell. Well, we had to go because we are the core members... Today, is the launching of the youth cell and the college cell only had like 7 ppl including aunt Margaret, Cmdr Li Lian and Eric. Nothing much... we only discussed on what topic should be shared, the appropriate time to have the cell, refreshments, song leading & etc... We closed with 2 praise songs and prayer and later we proceeded for refreshment.

Came back almost 7pm. I was really tired and almost felt asleep on the couch but somehow I managed to drag myself to the bathroom to take a nice hot shower. Then, jie picked mom and I for dinner at 8.30pm. We had a simple dinner but a great fellowship =)

:: Priceless ::

These few days hasn't been a productive day for me; eat, sleep, watch tv, internet, watch tv again... eat again. Except for last night where I had my dance prac for church 36th anniversary. So far, I guess that's the most productive thing I've ever done. hehe =) I'm getting kinda bored now, kinda looking forward for college. Wow... I know, this is one of my rare feelings, going back to college. It's a good thing also to go back. If my hols extend, I think my brains will be rottened by the time I go back. I seriously haven't been doing any revision except for MGT200 paper, which i studied 4days before my supplementary paper, 2 weeks ago.

This semester will be my 4th sem. I'll be taking Consumer Behaviour102, Law (Marketing)245, Marketing Research200 and Marketing Communication211. Yes, I've changed my major to single major Marketing, due to some circumstances. I just got the feeling that everything will be tougher this sem. *sigh** got to work extra extra and super-duper hard this sem. No more supplementary paper for me!!!

Kill by Jimmy Eat World

Well, you're just across the street

Looks a mile to my feet

I wanna go to you

Funny how I'm nervous still

I've always been the easy kill

I guess I always will

Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance? (chance?)

Or only one way that it was always meant to be (be)

You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say (hey hey, hey hey)

I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away

I can picture your face well

From the bar in my hotel

I wish I'd go to you

I pick up put down the phone

Like your favorite Heatmeiser song goes

It's just like being alone

Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain (vain)

I need answers for what all the waiting after means (means)

You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes (hey hey, hey hey)

I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away

So go on love

Leave while there's still hope for escape

Gotta take what you can these days

There's so much ahead

So much regret

I know what you want to say

(Know what you want to say)

I know people can't help feeling differently

I loved you, and I should have said it

Tell me just what has it ever meant?

I can't help it baby, this is who I am (am)

Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel (feel)

You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break (hey hey, hey hey)

I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away

I received a call from PK at around 1.09pm today, asking me to meet her up in Mid Valley. She will be going back to Penang tmrw and to Sydney next wednesday. As much as I wanted to go and meet her, but there was a part of me holding me back from going. What was it? Hmmm... 1st of all, I will have to take a bus there which is not very convenient from my house and secondly, today is my 1st day of my 'aunty visit'. For you girls, you know how it feels especially it's the 1st day.

Anyway, finally I decided to go through the hassle and meet up with her since I haven't been seeing her for about couple of years already. When I told her that I decided to go, she told me that she already bought tickets for movie. She said I was a few minutes late informing her... hmmm... anyway, it's a good thing also that I didn't go cause I'm feeling very uncomfortable now. So here I am, staying at home, bumming around the house (which is something I'm good at).

Going to clean my room now... it's in a mess!

Have a sun shinning day!

It's 1.40am now and I'm still very much awake. Can't sleep cause lately I've been waking up late. I'm listening to Backstreet Boys' I Still over again and again. I'm bored. Nothing to do. I'm just typing what comes into my mind now.

Oh yeah, Grace asked me if we, the girls, should do something tmrw... I was thinking, what's the occasion? If it's just for fun and it's because she's bored or anything, why not. Then suddenly she mentioned "the unattached ones", only the Valentine's Day thingy occur to me. I totally forgotten about it. Not because I'm unattached now, but I guess I'm lost in time. I can hardly tell you the date and day.

Then I commented on Jeff's nickname, which later leads us into a conversation in MSN. He's nuts! Ask me to go mamak at this hour. Well, not nuts exactly but eating at this hour??? That's so unhealthy man! He's hungry, so I suggested him to 'ajak' his brothers or cook maggie mee, which he has been eating almost everyday for the past few weeks due to exam. And he told me something which I don't think it's true and I stopped the conversation there.

And so now, here am I. Blogging and bored. A lot of things are running through my mind now like college is reopening soon & am I ready to go back and face the studying-reality???... this particular dream I dreamt last week... dance for anniversary (will i be able to dance well and not make a complete fool of myself?)... my supplementary exam result...


*this entry is the courtesy of sheila's boredom

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY CARYN!!!

Since it's her birthday today, I thought I might want to dedicate this entry to her. A friend whom I feel I've met her all my life but the fact, I've only known her for about 3 years. Though at times she treats me like her ATM and getting me into trouble together with her, I still appreciate who is she as my friend and treasure our friendship more than silver or gold.

Dear Caryn,

As you celebrate your 21st Birthday in a land far far away from home, I hope it will be filled with joy, happiness and laughter. I estimated your present will reach you on time and i hope you'll like it.

May God's abundance of blessing be upon you always as you grow closer to Him each day. And I hope you'll never go astray despite the peer pressure and your busy schedule. Hope to meet up when you come back.

Goodbye again...

Jes left for Australia again after she came back to work a year in Malaysia. This time she's back there to do her masters in Psychology. You see, in order to be a psychiatrist, you have to do your masters degree. And so, she left again, after working for a year in OCBC bank, on the night of 'chap goh mei'. Sadly, I was unable to send her off because of family dinner. However, I did spent a little bit of time before she left for KLIA. Kinda miss her already now...

Today is 'chap goh mei' which is the 15th day of chinese new year and also the last day of chinese new year. My family went for a dinner at V-Garden and this time we persuaded our granny to join us. The restaurant was packed and noisy. There was 2 wedding dinner going on at the same restaurant. We could hardly hear each other when talking.

According to the chinese tradition, girls/ladies will go to the river and throw mandarin oranges. In the hope of getting a husband. I don't know how realistic is this but it's something like this. And my sis used to tease this tradition that one should throw a watermelon, cause it's big enough for the guy to notice. Mandarin orange is too small to be noticeable in the river. hahaha... After the dinner, my mom, my bro, my SIL, my sis, my BIL and I went to secret recipe for a drink. Came back and I continue watching my OTH season 3 till episode 9.

Another day passed by and it's getting closer and closer to college reopen... *sigh**

Random pics from Youth Camp

tiger caught

me and the BobKong...

me, charlotte, shie yee, lih woon

the people

WELCOME people to my new blog. It's a brand new year and so I decided to get a new blog. So, from this moment onwards, my old blog is officially unavailable. Well, you still can accees to it but it will not be updated. So no point going there right? Unless, you want to read the old stuff which is not highly recommended. Hehehhe... Don't get me wrong, nothing obscene. Just that, let the past be the past. Look forward for greater things in life...

To start, I'll post some pictures of me, myself and my friends had fun in the presence of the Lord. Oh yeah, mission trip's pictures and Youth Camp's picture. This is to remind me of how God has been to faithful in my life and how He has increased my faith. As well as to remind me that, with the little talent I have, He can multiple and make full use of it.

Random pics from mission trip

the groupie:- li, grace, pas. lesley and his family, me, lotte, seaw chin, sis. ruth, keith, jason, jon raj, irvin, cmdr. gideon, kevin, daniel sel., shaun, silas, tony, jeff, collin & andy.

missing in pic: kenneth

longboat

li and starfish with flowers made of ballons

the kids in my group painting this master piece... and we WON!!! they are superbly amazing!

this adorable little girl is from Luing longhouse... (i forgot her name... oppsss)

poor starfish and her sprained ankle...

andy, me & lotte